luanLUAN’s WoRLd

chris:

hey…

i ask you no need come le ma…

just feel abit uncomfortable only…

you come pat tat chi…

you still bring three more guys come…

omg…

luan look so chan eh…

let people see le if no people want luan already then how?

luan still s & a de eh…

keke..

you already saw lar…

somemore you also know luan so stubborn de ma…

luan really won’t go for doctor…

even you call my mum wai hip luan also useless de…

cause even luan follow you to the doctor…

but luan won’t take the medicine de…

still don’t understand luan meh you?

but still okiez okiez lur…

atleast you know call my mum can wai hip luan…

but so bad lur…

luan hate people wai hip luan de…

but can forgive you lar cause you also care luan nia…

luan know…

just now luan just angry nothing nia lar…

but luan also know you care luan lar of cause…

but you know lar luan sick ma…

somemore abit siu jeh pei hei ma…

so will always angry nothing de lur…

also ask you don’t chong wai luan already de lar…

haiz…

but then hor just now you really no need purposely rush to carrefour and just buy me 100+ and mushroom sup de lur…

still pancit half road and change tayar when raining…

war…

you know when you come just now luan really shock when luan open the door for you…

another touching…

but also just few more months nia lar…

you also wanna go UK lur…

haiz…

you chong wai luan already…

so you should responsible find luan a kun ka when you study at UK that time…

keke…

bad…

don’t bully luan le har…

otherwise i really bu guan ni le…

hng…

(26.12.2007 wednesday 10.40pm)

derek r…

just now when chris send me back after yum cha that time…

he mention back why he will take care of luan…

he said you told him luan is a nice and good girl…

don’t let others bully luan…

that time luan shock…

how you know?

cause every people also thought just have luan bully others…

where got others dare to bully luan…

but you know…

you realize…

luan always let people bully…

(but of cause girls lar…guys just will sek sek luan only noh…)

erm…

luan really so touching…

cause you really so understand luan so you only will know that luan will kena bully by others…

and your care towards luan then you ask chris must take care luan…

so lovely you derek…

later around 11.00am after breakfast chris wanna bring luan to pavillion for movie eh…

happy happy…

miss you yah…

luan go to take a nap first noh…

(24.11.2007 saturday 6.40am)

derek:

weh…

thanks lar yesterday…

thanks you give luan some advice when i’m needed…

yesterday you should be take your dinner on time de…

but cause of luan you delay your dinner…

you are so lovely derek…

anyway luan really starting worry when chris go to uk then no 1 sayang sayang when luan down already…

you bad lar…

also don’t want come to kl study…

many friends mostly also study other place le leh…

wondering why you still wanna stay at hometown…

last time luan always thought that if you treat someone trully then other people sure also will treat you trully…

but luan realize that is no such thing in this world…

just that you prove to luan fiends you are a best decision…

anyway…

friendship forever…

but then you must put more effort on "her" lar…

later "sou zhao guo hao mou teng tap" ar…

okiez?

then hor…

don’t become "heavy color light friends" eh…

promise?

haiyo…

luan know you so busy also seldom read my blog de lar…

but you ever read before…

so when free come here lar…

date you over here…

keke…

chris:

another busy guy here…

but free come here lar…

we chat chat over here ma…

last night…

war…

luan very very down eh…

when luan call you that time you also know luan have something de lur…

but you so bad lar…

you keep scold scold scold…

then suddenly luan…

you…

shock again…

yea…

luan know you scold also just wanna luan grow…

but you know lar luan always like a princess de lar…

what to do…

haiz…

luan call you more than 45 minutes eh…

luan dunno when receive the phone bill that time what response should luan have…

sweat…

=_="

you lur…

wanna bring luan go "long kai" also don’t tell early de wor…

one more pity guy…

actually wanna sleep at around 12.30am…

but cause of luan…

you delay your bedtime till 3.30am…

just because you wanna bring luan to "long kai" and eat kfc in this late night…

you always know what should do when everytimes luan was down…

cause you really got treat luan trully so you can understand luan very well…

derek & chris:

you guys know last time luan also like that de…

who are beside luan never know luan and understand luan very well de…

luan mean couple…

luan also just will tell buddies what luan is thinking…

don’t ask luan why…

luan also dunno…

luan always don’t like let people understand luan so well de…

just you guys let me feel comfort and safety and secure…

never regret so love you guys…

luan really dunno when chris you go to uk next year who should luan find when need somebody beside…

not luan don’t have friends…

but the only closest friends in kl that is you chris only…

derek you also don’t want study over here…

but you both please don’t say the girls beside you will pity…

you guys never know how luan feel when beside you both…

so "hang fuk"…

that midnight luan still remember…

we all go to lagenda height for yc…

even you both also like to bully luan…

but also sayang and care luan the most…

thanks you guys…

thanks alot…

thanks for everything…

i love you guys…

(22.11.2007 thursday 12.00am)

daddy and mummy:

mummy…
luan really feel so sorry to you…
luan never forget what manners should a girl have that mummy teach luan…
(luan will do three good things in this weekend to redeem what luan have been done)
just that luan feel why seem like everything lose control since luan been kl…
this is not the first time luan feel luan change already…
such like last time when babe~ come to find luan…
luan also dunno why luan will have those bad attitude in front of him…
but really…
luan really care about him…
so maybe luan only will weird weird ba…
dunno…
maybe…
mummy…
luan know luan change become naughty already…
become bad…
but luan really try my best not to be influence by people around already…
luan will not scold bad words that you don’t like…
never and ever…
something luan feel luan wanna scold it out le luan will try cool down faster…
luan will swallow saliva and forgive them…
haiz…
mummy…
luan so miss you…
even luan seldom call you and chat with you…
but nevermind…
luan will buy the webcam as soon as possible…
then mummy ma can view luan in webcam le lur…
right bo?
mummy ar…
luan really need to get permission to being couple o?
haiz…
luan 21 already…
luan’s friends ask luan faster find a boy leh…
keke…
don’t so worry lar…
if you ask me to leave then i’ll leave…
cause i love you the most…
mummy you know everytimes you call luan and told luan that you miss luan and cried to luan in the phone…
luan’s heart broke already…
really wish that can rush to your hug on time…
luan know mummy love luan…
daddy you don’t laugh…
luan also know you miss and love luan too…
but still like to pretend…
how about daddy?
daddy got guai guai bo leh?
mummy got tell daddy that luan don’t allow daddy eat meat more than twice per week?
cause daddy lose control when see meat everytimes…
luan so bad…
sorry that luan didn’t by your side and take care you both…
sorry that luan strive hard to study at kl…
and just ask sisters and stuPIG brother to take care you both…
luan still your princess…
no worry about that…
daddy…
luan have one question wanna ask you…
why you guys like to pretend don’t care a person even that you guys care them a lot?
why?
luan still remember last semester luan have one week study week can go back to hometown…
back to your hug…
but then when luan told mummy luan wanna back…
mummy said dangerous then said don’t back…
guai guai revision at kl…
then when mummy cut the call daddy rush to mummy and keep asking mummy why don’t let luan back…
daddy why don’t you dispossess the phone from mummy and talk to luan…
luan sure will rush to your hug…
haha…
then when luan back to hometown that time daddy said luan so noisy…
and ask luan other time don’t back so long…
daddy is the best actor in oscar…
daddy bad…
said luan so noisy…
but then you guys never know the reasons why luan so noisy…
keke…
cause luan is so happy can back to all you guys hugs…
(hug hug)
daddy ar…
other time don’t say luan like that le o…
luan will sad sad ga even luan know you just kidding only…
cause luan care what you guys talk about luan…
sob sob sob…
(daddy got sayang sayang bo ar?)
keke…
now luan wanna shoot stuPIG brother…
hey…
why you like to pretend don’t care luan…
really stuPIG…
you always ask mummy use your mobile phone to call luan every weekend…
then jia jia sit beside and pay attention what mummy chat with luan…
then when mummy cut the call you so gan cheong ask mummy how is my life at kl…
how is my study…
got people hap luan or not…
you thought luan dunno o?
mummy told luan so long already lur…
ngek ngek ngek…
hehe…
stuPIG brother…
listen here…
if you care luan you can straight call luan and ask from luan…
no need to pretend your love to luan…
no need to shy cause i’m your princess…
your love towards luan no need wrap with wrapper…
okiez?
all of you too…
just like luan never pretend my love towards all you guys…
luan want whole of the world know luan love you guys…
cause luan don’t wanna get regret one day…
luan hate regret…
just like last few months…
luan care my babe~ but then luan always pretend don’t care…
he said luan let him feel not safety and not secure…
he said he feel luan don’t care him and the love towards him so fake…
so finally…
luan regret…
all you guys are my beloved…
thanks god to let me become luan…
and become all you guys princess…
thanks a lot…
never regret to become luan in this life…
(14.11.2007 wednesday 4.27pm)

today luan attend the 8.00am class…

luan was late…

luan reach the tarc gate that time 8.15am already…

so when the guard ask luan to show her luan’s id…

luan straight pass by her…

and didn’t apologize…

luan so bad…

after while luan walk to the class venue…

luan was thinking…

luan just think that even luan stop my step and say good morning and show you the id then say thanks also just will late more 1 minutes…

that is not a big deal…

why luan always so haste when luan wanna do something?

luan really feel so sorry…

luan wanna apologize to the girl guard here…

sorry…

luan don’t mean to show the bad manners to you…

but luan really late already…

luan promise no next time already…

okiez?

(14.11.2007 wednesday 11.15am)

babe:

you know luan mean you…

sorry…

luan really dunno what i’ve done make you so disappointed to luan…

you give luan chance before…

but luan never appreciate…

luan so stupid…

luan still never realize that is a big problem in our relation…

luan feel so sweet when you say you really sayang and love luan before…

6.10.2007…

luan still remember…

cause that day luan just back from hometown…

you never know how luan care you…

if luan didn’t mistaken…

you seem like not happy with luan never introduce you as boyfriend to others before…

luan told you the reason that day already…

luan also don’t want mention here anymore…

luan can feel you really love luan last time…

even you are shy to show your love towards luan…

and luan also can realize you really put luan down already…

luan are so regret never appreciate…

luan just try to appreciate since you leave…

but it is useless…

cause you give luan chances and chances…

but luan never realize that is a warn…

sorry babe~~

but please don’t say my caring and love so fake…

you know what?

you ever said you are really care and love luan…

just you pretend don’t care and don’t want show your love towards luan…

luan also…

luan also just pretend don’t care…

luan close my social for quite long time already…

luan just mix with buddies only…

luan didn’t hang out with others that luan dunno well already…

luan still remember you don’t allow luan go out with that person…

but luan said luan have own social…

luan said luan can uphold my own principle…

won’t do those thing that can let you worry and sad…

but luan did it…

even that was not luan willing to do that…

but luan still feel very guilty to face you…

cause luan thought that person can be trust…

finally…

luan told you luan wrong already…

even every people said luan so stupid…

even you fed up with luan that time…

but luan never regret to tell you the truth…

cause luan know…

if luan didn’t told you…

if luan hide from you…

if one day you realize yourself…

sure you more fed up…

cause you ever told luan don’t lie to you…

so luan choose to tell you the truth…

luan think you ever saw that person…

that was our first meet…

you saw luan in a person’s car…

yea…

is that person…

after happened those unhappy thing…

luan already didn’t meet that person anymore…

people told luan that let ownself busy and busy…

fill all the time…

with assignment…

with social…

with sport…

with reading…

then can miss you less a bit and a bit…

cheat me…

useless…

assignment?

going on…

social?

don’t feel wanna meet with somebody that luan dunno well…

sport?

luan feel so tired with assignment and didn’t sleep well no mood to join…

reading?

all my favourite book keep in hometown…

babe~~

isn’t it all is fate?

can you tell luan?

(8.11.2007 thursday 7.02pm)

shi yee:

thanks…

yesterday you ask luan for yum cha when you know luan is down…

you try to cool luan down and explain the situation to luan…

luan know…

and understand…

really appreciate you as my friend…

chris ever told luan that we can be familiar…

cause we have some view quite same…

you spend your rest time to accompany luan…

yesterday…

thanks again…

next time…

luan say next time when you have any problems…

find luan…

never reject…

this is a promise…

(8.11.2007 thursday 5.55pm)

chris:

thanks…

yesterday when luan is argue with mummy…

luan cry…

when you know luan cry…

you shock…

and dunno what to do…

this is the first time luan know you so long saw you dunno what to do…

you message luan that you will rush to luan as soon as possible…

when you rush to luan that time…

luan so touching…

really…

and you call shi yee to cool luan down…

yes…

luan know luan give you many problems since luan been kl last few months…

and you never reject what you can help…

that’s why luan become cry-baby…

cause luan have no idea to settle down the problem but you can solve for luan…

luan really so scare…

scare after you go UK then really dunno still have who can take care luan anymore…

you and derek are only that never friends me cause of my outlook…

you both never admire me…

luan know…

so that’s why i appreciate you both…

cause you both really treat luan as friend trully from the bottom of your heart…

many other guys treat luan nice too…

but most of them treat luan nice because of they admire luan…

so luan also never treat them from the bottom of my heart…

all admirers fake…

you only can look through their heart after you reject them…

so i hate those people…

luan face so much problems in this semester…

and you too…

but you still care luan a lot…

thanks…

thanks a lot…

thanks for everything…

friendship forever…

this is a promise…

(8.11.2007 thursday 5.41pm)

mummy:

sorry…

luan know is my fault…

really sorry…

luan should’t cut your call…

just that luan feel mummy shouldn’t talk with luan by this way…

why?

why mummy never trust luan?

why?

why mummy just believe what she told you?

why?

why mummy don’t hear luan explain?

luan really did nothing…

just that luan really very very stress with kl life…

so just will hang out with buddies only…

really just buddies only…

if that is not my buddies then luan will not hang out with them de…

really…

mummy ask luan cannot have boyfriend before degree…

luan admit luan didn’t follow…

cause luan is really far away from you mummy…

luan need somebody care luan too…

but nevermind la…

broke already…

even luan still love him…

like mummy and luan…

mummy love luan very very much…

but luan love mummy more than love ownself…

so we care each other very very much…

even what mummy say what mummy do also will influence my mood…

but we can’t communicate…

luan know what mummy give is the best of the world…

but this doesn’t means that it must be suitable to luan…

luan don’t need the best…

as long as is suitable to luan then is enough already…

but mummy never wanna try to communicate with luan…

mummy just wanna luan accept all what mummy give to luan…

we can’t communicate…

and that is the main reason luan strive hard wanna study at kl…

even luan is kl now…

but the heart never change…

it still same…

luan still love mummy like last time…

as luan said before luan can lose everything but luan can’t live without mummy…

but can mummy give luan some freedom?

just some freedom and some freedom…

a bit and a bit…

luan grew already…

21 already…

even luan still naughty like last time…

but this is the way luan keep my happiness and maybe purity in kl life…

mummy…

please don’t sad…

why luan will fed up?

mummy should know…

cause luan really did nothing…

but you all blame on luan…

isn’t reputation really important than happiness?

luan just hope mummy can trust luan a bit and give some freedom to luan…

if luan didn’t feed back then mummy sure will thought that luan did something bad then only don’t dare to feed back de…

but anyway…

mummy…

luan apologize to you…

please forgive luan that luan cut your call…

and please don’t sad anymore…

luan love mummy like how mummy love luan…

luan still your princess…

never change…

never and ever…

this is a promise…

miss you mummy…

(8.11.2007 thursday 3.16am)

i love you guy…

why?

just now…

what happened?

i also did nothing but you message me…

ask me for dinner…

you have no mood to eat and me too…

so ngam lar…

you really so so so lovely…

this time luan really so pui fuk u already…

first, luan did nothing but you seem like know luan no mood to eat then message luan ask luan to eat together…

second, even luan did nothing and also didn’t face to face to you but you know what happen on luan…

chris, are you keep spy in my body?

luan starting suspect you already…

maybe…

it is mak kai within our friendship…

like derek with luan as well…

i love you guys…

(7.11.2007 wednesday 3.44am)